Saturday, September 10, 2005
3:21 PM
this entry is rather angsty, so if you dont wanna be affected, jolly well type another URL and close this window.
ok. wo3 hao3 kui4 dui4 wen rui. i shall blog. i just totally sank into this depressed and bored mood. I JUST WANT TO SCREAM AND HIT EVERYTHING! ARGH. i'm so freaking tired of studying, mugging, anything la! THIS LIFE IS SO DEAD! i think track helps me to de-stress, i guess so. running helps. BUT TRACK IS STRESSING ME OUT TOO! all those performing well,up to standard, run well, stamina. TO HELL WITH THOSE FREAKS LA! whatever. i think i sound damn pissed off. argh.
i am so stupid.ineffiecient.useless.whatthehell am i doing for these past few days?! slacking?! i think so. very much in fact. feel like slapping myself. i'm just screwing up my life. i think all these EOYs studying has gotten too much into me. i keep wanting to go the changi beach and scream. who wanna go with me?! i think nanyang is mad. monday - bio and math. tues-chem and math. wed-chem and math. thurs- 4hr phy marathon DO THEY KNOW THAT IT IS THE SEPTEMBER HOLIDAYS?!they jolly well know they cant finish the syllabus, so DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. but NOT TAKE AWAY MY ONLY FULL BREAK! the only break where i dont have to go trng, only one week break to rest before EOYs.
yeah. later i shall fail my math.my BSP.my phy.my bio.my chem.my language arts. there's just this knot in my heart that i cant untie. it's supressing me. i cant breathe! ARGH.
man. all the piano practise sucks. i dont know why, but i cant feel the pieces anymore. they all sound the same to me. all monotonous, i dont have that feeling when i play the same piece. i'm useless.
the trojan horse or some other virus is creating havoc in my computer, everything is going haywire. argh. my homework not done. i spoilt my MP3. i think i can just jolly well go and die. my existence in this world is purposeless.
i suddenly dont feel like studying tmr already. why did things turn out this way?! WHAT HAPPENED?! why must it be like that?! argh.
you make my life perfect-`